Ha. Okay.

You are delusional. The only reason I am mad is because you think I take up your time. That's funny - nothing in my life gets done because I have to depend on you so how do I take up your time? Living and doing the right thing - that is what is taking up and wasting my time. Why can't I just sit around and be some lowlife and give you a reason to hate me? I didn't even do anything. And, this had nothing to do with her. You break promises all the time. That's what this is about. I'm tired of waiting around for you to realize and understand. Unfortunately, you had me and you have to deal with me. Unfortunately, you are responsible for me. Start acting like it. Other parents spend time with their kids or give them rides when they need it. They don't make everyone else do the work. I don't ask for a million things - just for the same thing over and over again. And you never give me straight answers so I have to bug you. I love how I get in trouble for mentioning my NEEDS - like going to the FUCKING DOCTORS.

And you assume shit and get an attitude with me for no reason. All I did was state that I needed an outfit if I am auditioning. I NEVER said you had to pay for it. Why should I expect you to pay for that? You don't buy me clothes any other time. In the car I was trying to make you laugh, not piss you off. But, you never laugh. Nothing is funny in your life anymore. You're just miserable and have a horrible attitude that rubs off on me. It's funny how I am fine when you aren't around. Everyone is for that matter. No one should have to live in fear.

You say how you don't want anyone to feel unwelcome in your home. THAT's HOW YOU MAKE EVERYONE FEEL! Even people who live here and especially ones who don't. Times are hard for everyone, not just you. Get your head out of your ass and open your fucking eyes.

You know what else is funny? How you told Mark you wanted to have a relationship with me!!!!! That is the most fucking hilarious joke I have ever heard. All you like to do is be mean to me. And tell me I'm all these traits that are really you. Let's hear the Real reasons for you getting married again? Oh, and why can't I get my license? Why can't I live my life? Oh, yeah, because I AM self centered. BAHAHAHAHA! That's almost as funny as you wanting a relationship with your daughter. We don't talk and the boys are way more important than me.

And, you say you can't have a moment without me. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Everytime I try to talk AT ALL you give me dirty looks like it is illegal for my mouth to fucking open. If I ask you a question and the King gets involved it's suddenly my fault. How about the other night!? "Why do you have to ask me questions?!" you yelled at me. Um, you're my mother. You're supposed to be there to answer my questions and to help me live life. Instead you just stifle it and slow it down. I spend all of my time in my room or gone because if I utter a sound you look at me like I took a shit on the Vatican and yelled "Jesus Christ Superstar" right at the Pope. Whatever. I forgot. You don't know how to be an individual or how to show your feelings or how to talk or vent without arguiing, being a bitch, and acting like you're in high school. I don't even know why I behave myself or why I get scared when I hear you stop breathing at night. If I was gone, you'd be happy. So why should I care if the same happened to you?