Things I Don't Do

There are a lot of things I just don't do anymore because it makes me remember. It makes things hurt.

1. I do not listen to Airport Scene unless we are speaking. It hurts too much to know what we could have and to know how much I love you.

2. I do not play Guitar Hero, particularly Guitar Hero III, because it reminds me of you.

3. I do not grow out my nails anymore. They remind me of you.

4. I do not date guys with tattoos and piercings anymore.

5. I do not believe people when they say "I love you."

6. I NEVER believe anyone who says it's forever. That's when I know it is over.

7. I do not let people know I care anymore because for some reason it drives them away and they never see what is right in front of them.

8. I do not go to tree farms. That's where people use you.

9. I do not drink Mountain Dew. I do not feel like repeating our first kiss over and over.

10. I do not enjoy New Year's anymore. I KNOW that is when you cheated on me.

11. I do not expect anything from people anymore. That way I'm not disappointed.

12. I do not go into FYE. That is where we met for the first time.

13. I try not to go into GameStop. Your absence makes it haunting.

14. I do not watch Pirates of the Carribean. If I do, I wait all night for a break-up call.

15. My birthday will never be the same.

16. I HATE FINALS WEEK. I love the tests. It's your lack of acknowledgement that I can't stand.

17. I do not enjoy summer. Summer sucks. The heat is cold without you.

18. I avoid conversations about relationships on Thanksgiving. Every Thanksgiving I remember our very special first kiss.

19. I don't use salt. I don't wanna remember what the tears tasted like.

20. I do not wanna finish this list. There's too much to carry.

21. I do not wear makeup. It makes me feel cheap.